Miles knew that he was at the brink of loosing his acting career with The Warmers if his current performance was anything to go by. His Director, Marshall was slowly loosing patience with him and only kept him longer because he was the most creative of the five in the group. Miles on the other hand owed to Marshall a lot since given different circumstances he would be fired. He new any lazy move this time round would land him to the firing squad and Hollywood would part of his dreams.
“Miles, we are counting on you this time, or else…,” he heard Marshall say this not once, not twice in the recent weeks and this message sent chills in his spine and he had to figure out quickly a way to salvage his career. But no one knew what Miles was going through; he had just lost part of his family to a plane crash in the last one month. But in a place where ‘Get over It’ was a common phrase, he had to nurse his grief alone in this happy industry. Besides, his only shoulder to lean on was his mother who was miles away and at least coping with her loss with the rest of his family. Miles thought for a while and wondered whether this was worth it, to have made it this far and only feel lost and eventually be embarrassed. He felt that others had the same sentiments and feelings only that they hid them under the mask of success and fame. He had to pen his feelings down in script and see if Marshall would approve of it. With short, simple language and great emotion, he wrote down what Marshall loved, a Readers Digest story and not a Mexican soap opera.
‘It has been tough and enduring to get to where I am today,’ he wrote, ‘but I can’t lose it all to grief in a day. I have to pull my self together and make the best out of my situation. At least I am brave but vulnerable, but it is always good to be real to one’s true feelings to survive in this world. One thing I ask is that our human experiences aren’t ignored but that they may be part of our everyday acting career. Because acting depicts real life without which Hollywood isn’t and not fairly tales from Mars or Jupiter. I wish you all understood me, felt me and walked me through this, I promise I will walk you through the same when your time comes, If only I could get one real hug, my life would start allover again.’
As Marshall read through the script, tears rolled down his cheeks, for a man who had survived three divorces and separation from his children, this was real moment for him. No one really cared about what he went through during these times and as a matter of fact, his best friend, Billy referred him to the best divorce lawyers in Hollywood to process his divorce papers as he hopped from one mess to the other in three failed marriages. For lawyers, this was a hassle-free market where thoughtless marriages were made and broken. Each of rest of The Warmers group recounted silently personal moments of grief and loss and all they could turn to was alcohol or drugs to calm their pain because no human would listen to them. In a place where hugs and kisses were thrown carelessly, for the five and their director, all they wanted was a heartfelt group hug and at the end of it, they knew all the pain they had hidden all along was gone, because for once in their career, they were real to their true feelings.